Ever Faithful

Meet Macie Grey. Puppy extraordinaire. More on why we got a pitbull later...for now, me:

So much has changed this past month, I feel like I'm still playing catch-up. My heart has been rocked and I am given the foreign task of having time to pick through the places of my heart I have easily walled off during busier times. 

It's been difficult to discern what is actually going on in that tumultuous place in my chest. More and more I am being challenged, asked, invited if I want to be in that place of complete surrender, complete commitment to what He has for me. Or do I want to pursue what has been invested in me to pursue - comfort and security. It's not like pursuing it ensures it even. Anything can and has come and blindsided my security, my comfort. 

Now my life is different. Yet, I'm so humbly blessed. I feel so incredibly loved by all of you - yes, you. For not loving me conditionally. For not putting my worth on what I produce, but who I am. I appreciate that. I, somewhat illogically, expected your disappointment and disowning me. So, if I haven't told you yet, thanks.

If I have learned only two things this past month, it is this: He cares about my completeness, not my comfort. And He is ever faithful to me.